E2=596 (or something like that). This is higher than it was at this point the last fresh cycle we did. I can't remember exact numbers right now, but it was somewhere around 530-550-ish. I think it's really weird that my follies are growing faster and my E2 is higher with a lower dose of stims. I don't go back until Friday and after they scan me, we will meet with the doc to get his view. He is keeping me on the same dosage until then, so I'm fully expecting my E2 level to skyrocket by Friday. We're going to be in OHSS land again and I am so, so, so worried they will cancel this cycle.
At least last time we had hope going into retrieval knowing they were going to freeze everything. We were comforted by the fact that we had so many embryos to freeze and work with later and that is what made the freeze all "okay" in my mind. Now that we're on the other side of three FET's (one cancelled before transfer and two BFN's), it makes everything different this time. I don't even see the point of going forward with a retrieval if my E2 is too high and we can't transfer. I don't see the point of freezing our embryos at all, it would just seem like a waste of time. 18 frickin embryos last time and, well, we know what that got us in the end. Jack shit.
The nurse didn't have much to say other than they are monitoring me really closely and I can speak with the doc on Friday to get his thoughts. She said I shouldn't be worried about my lining yet. There is still time. If it hasn't grown much by Friday, they might add some es.trace and see what that does. I don't have much faith in es.trace anymore. I think it's time to get a little more creative. I just don't know if there are any other options.
So 2 more sleeps until the next U/S and BW and a discussion with Dr. S. I'm actually quite proud of myself for how productive I've been at work this week. I feel like it has become a herculean task just to BE there every day, but I'm doing it and actually getting things done. At least I can do something right.