Friday, May 9, 2008

Lend Me Your Creativity

I need a name to start calling the embryos as I can't keep calling them that and I am feeling very uncreative at the moment. One name that is plural would work best since we don't know how many there are right now. Please, provide as many suggestions as you can think of.

I also added a new poll to the top right sidebar, so go vote on how many you think I have in there. I've also added one of those baby widgets that show how many days until my due date (sorry, Nancy, I know you think they're creepy). I know it is early, but I want to take advantage of all that is out there because for the first time, I can.

One of the best things about coming clean with my post yesterday was all of the comments I received. Each one made me smile, or tear up, and I just feel so loved by people I know and so many people I've never met. Even people who delurked and left a comment for the first time. It's an amazing feeling. I feel surrounded by joy for the first time in so, so long.

I'm particularly grateful for my blogging buddies who are still waiting, struggling through their current cycles, or dealing with recent disappointments. I know how hard it is to watch others around you get pregnant when you are still in the thick of it. And I know how hard it is to keep reading as they go through their pregnancy. This is all very new to me and all of the sudden I find myself on the other side of that line drawn in the sand. Except that I don't feel any different. I still feel like the same old infertile me. I most certainly intend to keep supporting you ladies as much as I can and I hope you won't abandon this blog. But if it is too hard, I will certainly understand. I just wanted to mention this because it has been on my mind and (as I'm sure you would expect) I'm sure I'll be spewing lots of pregnancy-related posts in the coming months.

Okay, with that out of the way, I am still trying to digest the news and it doesn't quite feel real yet. I'm guessing it won't fully sink in until that first ultrasound in a couple of weeks. It can't come soon enough. The other thing that can't come soon enough is B's hernia surgery. It is scheduled for Wednesday and I can tell he is getting more uncomfortable by the day. I think we will both be able to relax a little more once that is out of the way.

I have been noticing a few pregnancy symptoms. Let me first make a disclaimer that these are NOT complaints. I welcome any signs that the __________(s) are still growing inside me.

First to make an appearance was the nausea. It started Tuesday night with a particularly bad bout. Wednesday was a little bit better, but still rough. I had to force myself to eat. Yesterday was even a bit better and today I feel pretty darn good and my appetite seems to be returning. There is still an undercurrent there that I only notice if my mind isn't occupied by other things. The one thing I'm finding alarming is that chicken has thus far been completely unappetizing to me. I usually eat a LOT of chicken, so I hope this one goes away.

Second, my boobs are sore. I know this could be from the progesterone, but they also seem to be slightly larger today (yippee!) and they weren't sore at all last time I was on pro.metrium. As a side note, I am switching over to end.ometrin tonight to see if it is less irritating. I honestly can't remember how much the pro.metrium was, but the end.ometrin is pretty pricy ($120 for a week's supply). I'm hopeful that they will start weaning me off of the supplements in the next week or so, but I could be on them through the whole first trimester.

Third, my abdomen is sore. When I stretch in bed, it feels tight and almost like I did some new type of ab workout that works muscles I didn't know I had. I'm also getting little sharp jabs and pinches every once in awhile. I've been told this is probably round ligament pain as the ligaments that support the uterus stretch to accommodate the growing uterus. It is amazing to think that I would notice such a thing so early when the __________(s) are still so tiny.

The one notable early pregnancy symptom that I'm lacking is fatigue. I keep wondering why I'm not falling asleep standing up (well, I'm not actually standing up much these days) or watching tv. I guess I should enjoy the energy I have while I still have it.


PJ said...

Well, I was hoping you wouldn't desert your blog, so I'm really glad you are sticking around! Plus, you've been really supportive of me, and I appreciate that so much.

I LOVE those baby widgits, and want one of my own!

I am not feeling creative either. I blame it on Gonal F. Maybe "Widdle or Widdles" ya know, kinda like "little". I dunno. :)

I am the one who voted for FOUR, just for kicks!

Oh also, it does not seem like four weeks since your retrieval. So, if not, how does that work? Is the development different with IVF?

Still, YAY! Denise is knocked up! :)

Rhonda said...

i voted on twins - call me biased...i would absolutely love it if you had twinkies, since I can appreciated it on so many levels. I kinda like the names of Hippy and Sticky - first off, we all know that your uterus is quite hippy like and second, especially since i am hoping for two, Sticky...for the obvious reason.

WOW, I am still on super cloud nine and hope that it only gets better.

On the whole front regarding a lack of lethargy...savor the moment. whether it is one or multiples, you will need the energy, so you better be good at conserving.

...hey...have you heard the news that our little D is Miss Preggers???????????? I love to say that too!!!!

I am around next week until Friday and I am working down south. If you need me to come by and cook to help with you being relaxed and B having some doctor lovin' just say the word!!!


Duck said...

wow, this is great,symptoms already, how exciting!
i voted that you have 2 buns in the oven, how cute they will be!

Rebecca said...

Okay...I can't think of any names right now, but I am so psyched that you are pregnant! Those sticks are great! I had the same abdominal pain very early in my pregnancy and it totally freaked me out. You're right...the stretching or twisting in bed was the worst...I'd like to say it goes away, but...


Valerie said...

I voted for 2 as well. Sorry not creative enough to come up with a name for the embies.

M said...

Hey, what you have are buns in the oven. NOT freezer buns, but oven buns. Baking buns, sweet buns, sticky buns, rising buns, fresh buns. All you need are buns-- remember the Beatles song "All you need is love"? Here ya go:
Love you, B and the buns! Mom

Kristina said...

Sorry - the only singular/plural word I can think of is "sheep." A quick internet search gave me these: pajamas, forceps, binoculars, deer, knickers, and fish. None are particularly helpful although "knickers" sounds kind of cute to me :) "The knickers made me vomit twice this morning. Can you go get me a smoothie?"

Anonymous said...


Ok, seriously, I just wanted to say that a) my boobs were super sore b) I had lots of "twinges"'re ovaries are probably huge and taking up lots of space and squishing the Hades out of stuff c) my abs were tender from to get go d) I dislike chicken most of the time too now (and I used to live at Chick-Fil-A). Again, major congrats! And also, I always really appreciated the fact that you checked in and commented etc. after I got my beta's back...I knew that must have been hard.

Spicy Sister said...

I agree with M - I think you should stick with the baking buns theme. Sweet buns, buns rising, buns baking....I think it is sweet!

Once again you have written a post that has inspired me to write something very similar - what can I say? You are brilliant!

I have that weird sore abdomen thing too! I thought it was so strange! Glad to hear I am not the only one!

Anonymous said...

I didn't like chicken either when I was pregnant, and I too normally eat a lot of chicken.

Once I got the "pregnancy" diagnosis, my insurance started covering the Endometrium. Hopefully, yours will too.

Congratulations and enjoy being on the "other side of the line".