It's Officially Official (P Word Mentioned)

I'm PREGNANT!!!!!

And in shock. Someone pinch me.

First beta HCG today at 14dpo was a whopping 445! They like it to be over 50. Progesterone should be over 20 and mine is at 60. These little embryos (I need to think of something else to call them-suggestions are welcome) are definitely over-achievers right now! I hope this gives the other U.O.D. (uterus of doom) ladies with thin linings some hope as my lining never got above 7 this cycle. Don't ever let an RE tell you 7 is too thin if it looks consistent and has a triple pattern!

It is still very early (I am considered 4 weeks pregnant today). Anything can still happen, so we are celebrating quietly and humbly.

We were originally going to wait until the 2nd blood test to tell people, but we just couldn't wait. I feel like shouting out from a rooftop "I'M PREGNANT, WORLD!" You see, I've been hiding something from you, dear readers. Tuesday morning, I gave in to impulse and, well, for the FIRST TIME EVER ladies and gentlemen, 2 gorgeous pink lines! See...
















And then I started spotting again Tuesday night. So I HAD to POAS again on Wednesday morning. See...

















And of course, I was still spotting and the line didn't get darker and I was sure it was ever so slightly lighter than Tuesday and that is when I officially started obsessing thinking just my luck, I'm going to miscarry my very first pregnancy ever really early. So this morning...

















The line is DEFINITELY darker. Here is a picture of all three sticks together.
















Enough pictures of pee sticks for you?

So, the next step is a second blood test on Saturday. We have a target HCG number of 739 (66% increase from today's number). Although, if the number doesn't quite rise that much, we shouldn't be TOO concerned as it is possible that there are currently two growing inside me and one may not make it to Saturday. We'll take one. Or two. Either way. I just can't believe I'm finally pregnant. Have I mentioned that yet? I'm pregnant. I don't think it has quite sunk in yet.

In going through this journey, there have been many losses to mourn. The loss of our ability to conceive on our own, the loss of expectations, the loss of an expected timeline, loss of control. The list goes on and on. One of the losses that was most difficult to swallow was being able to surprise our families and friends with news of a pregnancy. To be able to impart the news and get shocked, happy faces/voices in return. To find some creative way to tell our families. To be the source of happy tears and celebrations instead of worry, depression and pain.

Turns out, we didn't really have to mourn this particular loss at all. Telling our friends and families today has been the most rewarding, fun experience. In some ways, I think it is even better than it would have been had we conceived naturally right away because everyone is just so darn excited! And this excitement is so contagious. We are trying to keep it under control because, again, it is very early. No person in their right mind would ever tell their family and friends about a pregnancy that was only 4 weeks along. But our family and friends have been following every step for months or years.

We are taking a bit of a risk here in sharing this amazing news right now, but it is something we knew we'd have to do once we gave people my blog address. Frankly, it is a risk I am so happy we took because no matter what happens, at least we get to spread some great joy for now. I wouldn't want to miss that for the world.