The Dam Broke

Today was a really good day. It flew by because we had tons of visitors. They moved me to my new room which has a little fridge and a mountain view! I was actually hungry for the first time in days and the shakiness from the terb is pretty much gone. I even got to go outside today. Woo hoo! My family was here visiting for awhile and B was able to go home and do some laundry before coming back to the hospital. Then it got dark and everyone left. And I sat in bed and looked around the empty room. What now?

Oh yeah, did I mention I'm here at least until tomorrow? It really is just day by day.

B had to go pick up the dogs this evening who have been kenneled since Friday. He called me a bit later when everyone had gone too and I just started crying. I felt stupid and I know it made him feel guilty. I just couldn't help it and now I'm tearing up again just thinking about it. Hospital rooms are lonely places at night. Even with the company of the tv, phone and laptop.

B called back a bit later while I was eating dinner and told me he is taking the day off tomorrow and now I feel guilty for making him feel guilty. But he said the dogs are pretty wigged out. Scout, our little schnauzer is running all around the house looking for me and Molly, the big hound/pointer mix, ran right into the house and jumped up onto the coffee table. I'm sure they'll settle down soon though. They should be exhausted after being at the kennel.

As far as Apple and Banana go, they've been moving around like crazy. They actually behaved for this morning's monitoring session, but the second session took a bit longer to get them settled. One more session to go tonight. My contractions were pretty good this morning spaced from 7 to 11 minutes apart. During the second section, they were a bit closer together, back around 6 minutes apart. I'm not really convinced the pr.ocardia is doing anything. I think this is just my pattern now. They are slower in the morning and get closer together as the afternoon wears on. I guess as long as they aren't painful, and my cervix holds up, I could continue like this all the way to 38 weeks.

The doctor did check my cervix today and said it still seems closed, so that's good. She also did a swab for the strep-B test. I guess it is probably a good thing my mom asked about that today (of course I forgot), because the treatment is usually penici.llin, which I'm allergic to. This way, if I have it, the lab has the time to figure out which antibiotic will work and it will be all ready to go whenever the babies are born.

Being on a labor and delivery ward is a little weird. Women are giving birth all around me and we are trying really hard to make sure I don't. Yesterday when my contractions were pretty regular around 4-5 minutes apart, the nurse commented that I had the best labor pattern on the floor. How ironic. When I do hear a baby crying, I get wistful for a minute wishing that Apple and Banana were here, and then I have to push the thought away and give them a strict thought to stay put. Now is not the time.

The good thing about this hospital visit, is that we're now very comfortable here. I know how things work and I've met a lot of the nurses. It has also helped me decide what to pack in my hospital bag, which we are going to do this week-no more putting that off. Oh, and we are going to try to move up our prenatal doula visits too for fearing of not getting the benefit. I'm hoping that this hospital stay just makes it that much easier when we do come back for delivery. Hopefully not for another 8.5 weeks or so.