Thanks to everyone for your comments on my last post. It is good to know that my support system is still intact even though I feel guilty for whining (and, Nancy, if you could hear me in person, yes, it sure sounds like whining!). But I guess I am starting to be okay with things and know that I'm entitled to whine a bit when I feel it's necessary.
You might have noticed that I now have two different baby widgets on my sidebar. I added the new one because it allows for twins, but I didn't want to get rid of the first one because I like the functionality of being able to click on the week and read about what should be going on in there for that week.
This week was very similar to last week. Monday and Tuesday were horrible, horrible, long days of feeling awful all day long and then lying in bed moaning all evening. Things got a bit better as the week went on and today I almost felt completely normal for about an hour in the morning. I'm so glad the weekend is here so I can lie around all day without having to move other than to pee and eat. I think I've finally found the right dose and frequency of col.ace that makes the constipation bearable, so that is good progress.
I'm still taking the zo.fran (hence the horrible constipation). To be honest, it doesn't seem to do much of anything for the nausea, but I haven't vomited since I started taking it (knocking fiercely on wood). That isn't to say I haven't come close at times. Very close. But at least I've been able to keep some food down. And last night, I actually wanted AND enjoyed eating dinner. That hasn't happened in a long time. I am thankful that my insurance covers the stuff as it is really expensive ($27 per pill and I take 3 per day). At least I'm getting something out of my health insurance, even if they wouldn't pay for a cent of any of my IUI's or IVF's.
I've also rediscovered my sweet tooth with a vengeance. Probably not the best thing, but all I've wanted lately is donuts, ding dongs, and chocolate in any form. I haven't had a ding dong in so many years and I have no idea what made me think of them, but I mentioned it last night and when I got home from work today, ding dongs had magically appeared on the kitchen counter. Of course, the magic was B going to the store this morning (for the 500th time in the past 2 months). I also now have a supply of donut holes, cupcakes, in addition to my standard fruit that I've been living on lately (grapes, watermelon, bananas, and peaches, plus the new addition of grapefruits which sounded good last night too).
Now that I think about it, I'm definitely feeling better now (at least at this moment) because it isn't making me feel sick to talk/write/think about food. What a relief! That isn't to say I don't still have my dark moments where I feel like I'm about to die, but at least there is SOME relief from the constant doom and gloom. I'm starting to have short periods of time where I actually feel like reading my pregnancy books or looking at baby stuff online. Progress. Or baby steps, so to speak. I don't know if it is from the zo.fran and it took awhile to build up enough constant supply in my system, or if I'm starting to feel a bit better because I'm nearing the second trimester. I really hope it is the latter.
My next OB appointment is next Wednesday and this time I'll actually get to see my OB and hear the babies' heartbeats (I hope). It will have been 4 weeks since our last ultrasound which seems like a lifetime to me. I'm really hoping we'll get another peek at the buns next week so I'll feel like everything's still on track. I guess the experiences we've had in the past 2+ years have just made it difficult for me to believe that things will go smoothly. Part of me is still waiting for the other shoe to drop, but I'm trying not to think about that too often.
I'm also curious if she'll start measuring me and if she'll tell me how far along I'm measuring. It's a little ridiculous to me that it is difficult to hide the bump already, given that this is my first pregnancy. But I guess with two, it's to be expected.
I've been wanting to start taking belly pix for a couple of weeks now since I started showing so early, but I didn't get around to it until last weekend. And then once I got the first picture taken, I got too lazy to actually post it. I'm debating whether to create a separate blog for these pictures so that I have them in one place-I would just do a website, but I'm not that tech savvy (unless one of my teki friends wants to give me some tips!). So for now I'll just start posting them here.
Here is the belly at 10w2d (last Saturday).
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