Wired Part Deux

2nd round of shock therapy was today. It was pretty similar to yesterday, except I didn't feel quite as much of a "weight" on my back. She let me go an extra 10 minutes today for good measure since this is the last appointment before my next doppler U/S on Saturday. Having really mixed emotions about that appointment. I want it to be over and done with, but I really don't want bad news. I will not be a pleasant person to be around if we get postponed or cancelled this cycle (not that I'm all that pleasant to be around right now anyway).

I think what's adding to my anxiety about Saturday is that we have a wedding to go to (1pm ceremony/7pm reception) and I may have a very hard time being social and happy around other people if this appointment doesn't go well. Why can't I just crawl into a hole in the ground and not come out until I have a baby in my arms?

*Edited to add* Oh, I forgot, she also sat down with me afterwards to talk about other "things" we can do to help the blood flow. The other things included avoiding caffeine (done), drinking lots of water (done), walk around, move around or get some exercise (I'm trying) and avoid sitting with my legs crossed (huh?) or being hunched over. I immediately uncrossed my legs and sat up straighter. She thinks that sitting hunched over or with your legs crossed cuts off blood supply. I guess it makes sense, I just never thought twice about sitting with my legs crossed (which I pretty much do ALL day long at work every day). Oops.*

On a more positive note, Jen got some amazing news today! Yay Jen!!!