Lend Me Your Creativity

I need a name to start calling the embryos as I can't keep calling them that and I am feeling very uncreative at the moment. One name that is plural would work best since we don't know how many there are right now. Please, provide as many suggestions as you can think of.

I also added a new poll to the top right sidebar, so go vote on how many you think I have in there. I've also added one of those baby widgets that show how many days until my due date (sorry, Nancy, I know you think they're creepy). I know it is early, but I want to take advantage of all that is out there because for the first time, I can.

One of the best things about coming clean with my post yesterday was all of the comments I received. Each one made me smile, or tear up, and I just feel so loved by people I know and so many people I've never met. Even people who delurked and left a comment for the first time. It's an amazing feeling. I feel surrounded by joy for the first time in so, so long.

I'm particularly grateful for my blogging buddies who are still waiting, struggling through their current cycles, or dealing with recent disappointments. I know how hard it is to watch others around you get pregnant when you are still in the thick of it. And I know how hard it is to keep reading as they go through their pregnancy. This is all very new to me and all of the sudden I find myself on the other side of that line drawn in the sand. Except that I don't feel any different. I still feel like the same old infertile me. I most certainly intend to keep supporting you ladies as much as I can and I hope you won't abandon this blog. But if it is too hard, I will certainly understand. I just wanted to mention this because it has been on my mind and (as I'm sure you would expect) I'm sure I'll be spewing lots of pregnancy-related posts in the coming months.

Okay, with that out of the way, I am still trying to digest the news and it doesn't quite feel real yet. I'm guessing it won't fully sink in until that first ultrasound in a couple of weeks. It can't come soon enough. The other thing that can't come soon enough is B's hernia surgery. It is scheduled for Wednesday and I can tell he is getting more uncomfortable by the day. I think we will both be able to relax a little more once that is out of the way.

I have been noticing a few pregnancy symptoms. Let me first make a disclaimer that these are NOT complaints. I welcome any signs that the __________(s) are still growing inside me.

First to make an appearance was the nausea. It started Tuesday night with a particularly bad bout. Wednesday was a little bit better, but still rough. I had to force myself to eat. Yesterday was even a bit better and today I feel pretty darn good and my appetite seems to be returning. There is still an undercurrent there that I only notice if my mind isn't occupied by other things. The one thing I'm finding alarming is that chicken has thus far been completely unappetizing to me. I usually eat a LOT of chicken, so I hope this one goes away.

Second, my boobs are sore. I know this could be from the progesterone, but they also seem to be slightly larger today (yippee!) and they weren't sore at all last time I was on pro.metrium. As a side note, I am switching over to end.ometrin tonight to see if it is less irritating. I honestly can't remember how much the pro.metrium was, but the end.ometrin is pretty pricy ($120 for a week's supply). I'm hopeful that they will start weaning me off of the supplements in the next week or so, but I could be on them through the whole first trimester.

Third, my abdomen is sore. When I stretch in bed, it feels tight and almost like I did some new type of ab workout that works muscles I didn't know I had. I'm also getting little sharp jabs and pinches every once in awhile. I've been told this is probably round ligament pain as the ligaments that support the uterus stretch to accommodate the growing uterus. It is amazing to think that I would notice such a thing so early when the __________(s) are still so tiny.

The one notable early pregnancy symptom that I'm lacking is fatigue. I keep wondering why I'm not falling asleep standing up (well, I'm not actually standing up much these days) or watching tv. I guess I should enjoy the energy I have while I still have it.